Dreams

For more than a decade I can remember having dreams about my failed and failing relationships.  They always had some common elements. One was the ex’s were always there. It seemed as though they all lived next door to each other in apartments. In every dream the apartments were engulfed in water. Like on an ocean and in danger of sinking. Sometimes the focus was trying to save them all… and sometimes it was one of my son’s that needed saving.  All these dreams about all these challenges in my life.  I even googled them in the morning and never once. Not once, did the water connect back to August 1985 and Liberty 603… Until counseling this past May. 

Underneath everything in my world there was this darkness of the water and it was always a threat to my family and I never saw it until the VA counselor asked me if I'd looked at it that way.  The water was always a threat, but I never connected it to that night – and never connected it as a common thread back to that incident. 

Sometimes it’s really important to share outside of family. Outside of friendships. Take advantage of the VetsCenter near you. It’s not the VA, it’s easy to get in and talk, and it costs nothing, and it could change – or save your life.  

I’m convinced it saved mine.