Yesterday was Hard

 

It was.  If you read the previous post you already know that. Today (the day after) is already very different in a much more positive way. 

Is it because it’s a work day?  I’d be tempted to say that plays into it at least a little. But honestly I believe it’s because I pushed through. 

My wife just stayed centered all day yesterday. Supportive and non-demanding.  She told me I didn’t have to do anything, I could do whatever I wanted. Even if it was nothing. 

Instead I got the door painted and started on the master bedroom walk-in closet. It’s nowhere near finished - but it is well on its way. In fact, it may be possible to wrap up the closet and hang the new door all in the next block of time I get.  

Because I stared two projects - and didn’t have the time to finish it would be easy to drown in the incompleteness darkness.  Instead, I see the progress made. Solid progress, and not all of it relates to the home improvement - but also to my improvement. 

Loving support like I get from my bride, combined with the hard-core reality life skills and tools I get from my counseling  combined to get me through. 

They can’t keep that darkness from coming at me. They can’t keep it from always being a threat, but they give me tools I can use to beat it when it does come for me. 

It’s a new day, a cold autumn day, but it’s crisp with opportunity and loaded with fresh lessons. 

So what’s the take-a-way? 

The darkness likely will always try to make a come back, so we have to stay strong - keep working on ourselves, so we’re ready to defend our happiness when needed. 

Interesting. 

Sounds like I’m in the damn Navy again.  Train. Train. Train, for a battle that may never come. But if it does - we bring it to the approaching enemy and we fight hard - and win. 

It’s what we do. 

It’s what we have to do.