End of the Year Us

A lot has happened in the last 12 months. If you’ve read along here, you’re aware of the bigger things.  What’s been a challenge here at the end is seeing through the cloud of emotions and acknowledging a lot of good things, and positive steps happened in 2024.  Sure, we’re getting down to brass tacks on some. Bigger items, but the great things of 2023 far outweigh the negative, or the challenging.

 First, I got serious about me. Acknowledging the damaged parts of me and the help I need to get that damage under control.  Given how long the darkness had its way with me in this life - it is truly stunning that I am still here. Still pushing forward, still working to make life better for me and those closest to me.  Speaking of those closest to me, I am often stunned at the love that comes my way.  I’ve always felt alone in the world, that people just count on me to provide and I had to endure and make sure we had what we needed. 

Now I see what empathetic love is and how warm it feels.  To be loved - all of me - the light and the darkness… to be fully accepted - and have someone who’s your champion in winning not only the big battles - but sometimes simply winning the hour - or the day. 

Progress no matter how small is still progress, and we celebrate together… and it’s beautiful. 

I worry I can never ensure she knows just how much she’s loved, appreciated and respected. 

A year ago tonight I proposed to her and she said yes.  We were married 55 days later, and the journey has been the best ever. 

Thank you my love, for accepting all of me.  For your patience with me, and for your huge heart that gives me more warmth than I knew was possible. 

2023 had the worst.  The loss of my soul-dog, and the thoughts of joining the 22 a day, and here we are.  Your love. Your embrace of (again) all of me - humbles me. 

I so love you and I so look forward to the great things that are ahead for us!