Friday, December 29, 2023

I seem to be falling apart. Good sleep hasn't existed in months.  The occasional good six hours keeps me going - but this whole experience is exhausting. 

So this week there are two new health concerns, one - and the one that bothers me the most - involves scarring on my lungs and a fear that it is asbestos related. The process of determining if it's related to asbestos is going to take a while... in the meantime we wait, continue to cough, continue to take steroids, and deal with the stomach shit from that - and wait some more. 

I was looking forward to a VetsCenter counseling appointment this week, but it got pushed to January.  

Why is it that when these appointments get canceled or pushed I fall apart?  

It's exhausting. 

I'm tired. 

I really need to get away, go camping, sit at a fire and just veg until I smell like a half burned log. 

Will I sleep better?  I don't know.  But I'd like to find out. 

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